mild self harm

weather: 🌤️ cooling down a little critters: assorted finches nibbling figs lately i've been trying not to chew the skin off my lips. i also chew the insides of my cheeks, but let's address one thing at a time. i hadn't thought of this as self harm until recently. like, it's not normal for them to look like the fucked up red paint on a no parking curb, no matter how hydrated and exfoliated i am. right? so rather than shelling out for yet another lip treatment i'm 100% certain will not help, i'm trying to be more conscious of what my teeth are doing i tried a few methods before fully committing to a count of days unchewed. so far i have two effective hacks: gum1 and glitter lip gloss. the gum is self-explanatory but the glitter lip gloss is important--it makes me hesitate before nibbling. turns out even my subconscious doesn't want to eat glitter i think a lot about the time when S and me were young (me 18, him 20) and i told him that one thing was self harm. he said he'd never thought…