Value

Have you ever felt like you had only one thing to do and you messed it all up and now you are afraid that you'll never redeem it. And you keep pushing it away because you are scared because if you try again you will fail at it again. Wow I have so amny regrets. Looking back at what I could have done right, I am surprised at myself. How did I mess up so bad? I have friends who did great, and I have friends who messed up but picked themselves right up and walked again, I have friends who despite of falling made it up on time, I also have friends who haven't given up and are sure to have the greatest comeback. And then there is me... who is scared to even try. Am I too comfortable in my own little box of a room with closed windows and doors, just spending away the most precious time, deteriorating my own health in the process? Am I just satisfied of what I already have? Is that the problem? I feel like I should be writing this in my personal diary, aaaaaaaaaaa. When will I stop…