21 days since saying goodbye

It's been 21 days since we've had to say goodbye to my soul dog, Cocoa. It has not gotten easier, but I am trying to learn how to hold the grief that is within me. I have hard days, and then harder days. There has not been any easy days. I don't know when those will come. I don't think it will be any time soon. We are continuing to look for Cocoa signs. We continue to honor her daily with walks around the neighborhood (and in everything we do). We have never stopped talking to her out loud, because we know that she is listening. We've only told some people about Cocoa's passing -- our close friends, and work, because we have had to. We have not had the energy to make an outright announcement. But we will tomorrow, and I'm kind of dreading it. I miss you, Cocoa. Reply by email