on top of the world

I was feeling really good yesterday. I'm feeling pretty good today too. These days scare me a little. I'm happy, I'm energetic, I'm fairly capable. And then the ideas start coming. I haven't been very involved in the world over the last 2 years due to my mental disability. I used to get ideas and run with them and burnout. I don't do that any more. But on days like yesterday, it feels like I could jump back in, get into coding again, get into journalism again, or participate in a local political group. I get excited, I feel like the world has opened up to me again, I feel like I could do it. But I check myself. I remember last week was a bad week. I could barely even take care of myself. I remind myself that this energy likely won't last, that I need to continue building & growing. I hold onto hope that I'll get there one day. That I'll be able to do it all again. Patience.