affection

In my car. Waiting for carpool into city. Feeling a bit rushed and out of sorts past week or so. Brother’s wedding coming up. A friend wanted to come to the town they live in but I wasn’t sure if I could accommodate them. I think I can it just requires finagling. Work. Not work. Friends. Girls. Animals. Anima and Animus. I feel less lonely; in some ways. More lonely in others. It feels really good to have another person love you. But it’s easy to lose yourself in. Like too many zonnics. Yeah… kind of like that. An addiction. It makes me think what I missed out on that made my brain so sensitive to it. To attention. To love. To affection. Don’t think I’ll figure it out at 5:55AM but maybe later this week. Maybe.