Playing Stardew Valley

I haven't really been wanting to do much lately because of the guilt. I feel bad when I'm doing anything other than thinking about Cocoa, looking at photos and videos of her, or just sitting with the grief. It took me a while time to start reading again because of it. We've barely turned the TV on to watch anything, but we're trying. I still haven't allowed myself to listen to any music1 or even continue training for my half marathon, which is getting closer and closer. But for some reason, a part of me was pulled to pick up my Switch and play Stardew Valley2. I remembered that I have a farm where I have a dog named Cocoa. I wanted to see her again, even if it was in another form. When I loaded my saved game, I opened the farm that LC and I have been playing together first. On our joint farm, we have a dog named Salchicha3, which is one of Cocoa's MANY nicknames. I felt compelled to adopt another dog, this time giving her Cocoa's actual name. It felt like another version of her was…