fear (of losing everything) is one hell of a motivator

I write this thinking of everyone who had to build themselves from scratch in a foreign country, who had to put their pride aside and took the low-wage job to make ends meet, who only have themselves for a safety net. In such position, I think most of us carry the same rooted fear, and it isn't "What if I fail?" It's closer to, "What if I lose everything I've built and end up back in the exact place I spent my whole life running from?" It's strange, how I feel I have to work twice as hard as the average person, because I wholly believe it keeps this fear one step behind me. Sometimes, I picture my periphery walking at a normal pace, while I run myself breathless just to feel on par with them. I'm not trying to slip into a victim mentality, whining about how much easier other people have it. But the world wasn't built evenly, and other people do have it easier. Maybe I have to work twice as hard as people around me to feel like I'm on their level. Maybe someone else has to work five…