panic ep 2

This is followup to I get exhausted so fast It didn't feel like exhaustion today. I decided to put in 2 hours of productivity again. Started about 1:30 (3:00 now). Also, since Friday I decided to expand what my intentional productivity time could include. It's not just house chores now, but can include: Meditation, shower, piano, and other positive activities that I often struggle to engage in. I vacuumed (doing this every day to try and get rid of flease). That's 20-30 minutes. The psychic "pain" wasn't really there. Maybe a poke after vacuuming, but nothing bothersome. I picked all the ripe tomatoes from my garden (except for the cherries. Sidenote: My cherry tomatoes are HUGE and its weird. They good though.). I did that without much mental struggle. Some tomatoes were spoiled, had been gotten by insects, or had sat on the ground and gone rotten. The yucky feeling from their juices was ... bothersome. Had to rinse my hands once. Couldn't bring myself to clear out some of them bc I…