Air Conditioning

My watercolor painting.1One of my most valuable possessions is the pawn my father carved eleven years ago to replace the one we’d lost from our chess set. We'd fallen into the habit of playing at the hospital while we waited for his new lung, and he whittled the pawn quickly. I can still see the blade coming dangerously close to his oxygen tube. Now I keep it on my little altar next to my sobriety chip and a spell against demons I received when C. and I visited a Taiwanese temple.I like Simon Critchley’s thinking about the need for the spiritual to take a physical form: “The fragment offers the promise of the whole. The devotional object, the image, the relic, is the material container for what cannot be contained within it." What cannot be expressed in language or thought must be felt and seen, and the object becomes a pathway to the sacred because we know it is not sacred. My father’s pawn is enough. I don’t need a whole chess set.2Sometimes I worry that I'm forgetting how to feel…