to all my friends who became mothers before me

I wish I could have been there for you when you needed me most. I wish I could have been there every time you felt lonely. I wish I had kept you company on the nights you stayed awake. I wish I had told you it was okay to feel like crying your heart out. I wish I had made you feel normal when you thought something was wrong with you. I wish I had hugged you every time you needed someone and no one was there for you. I wish I had comprehended you. I wish I had supported you. I wish I had given you everything you lacked when you needed it most. I’m sorry for not being the friend you needed me to be. I didn't understand back then, but now I do, and I ask for your forgiveness.