Today I am 49 Years Young

I still cannot believe I am more than half-way of my life expectancy. Are there any words of wisdom? I don't think I have any. Even if I did, it would be in this blog already. The last 12 months, I have accomplished most of the things that I have set out to do. Yet, I find no peace within myself. The sense of frustrations and fear of failure never go away. This has haunted me all my life. I am grateful for my family's silent support. All these years, I have not heard any complaints from them. As I reflect today, I have also not full filled the promises that I made for them. I owe my wife a new car as her car is nearly 20 years old. More than twenty years ago, she told her about her dream car. I promised her that I will get her dream car, I never did. It is a promise that's long overdue. I have also promised my family a good holiday outside of the continent, which I have also not full filled. I kept telling them next year and next year. The "next year" never came. As far as I have…