feeling great + stange desire to stop posting

hi! i have taken a vacation, and i must say, it was needed. i was being sucked into a quicksands of a depressive state, which is now manageable. for whatever reason, i feel the urge to stop posting and delete my blog. it is not exciting anymore. i've always been fascinated by the question of how the excitement dies off in a relationship and have come to the conclusion that a lack of excitement is really a lack of curiosity about your partner. this blueprint seems difficult to apply to a hoppy, such as blogging. i do not feel drawn to open bearblog.dev anymore, nor do i have ideas on how to improve the blog design or specific pages. not deleting anything, i would like to sit with this and maybe ponder on it. perhaps i needed a blog more when i was feeling worse, to air out my frustrations? why then, does it cause more resistance in me to share something positive with the world?