I am wanting to be wanting after a trip to the ER

Portrait of an ER Patient Post Nutrition Label Content Type: Text Read Time: 10 min Tone: Stream of conscious Mood: Anxious Sensitive: ER visit, heart health Ok, blank page. Let's go. I'm hitting enter every time I stop typing and for the time I think for a few seconds.so I can get an idea of what, exactly, it takes to drag me down into stream-of-consciousness on this fucker. Because — it has been A Rough Few Weeks. And I want to get through this in one sitting, which is its own small lie I'm telling myself, because wanting things and doing them are, it turns out, not the same organ. I started a vacation with my birthday. Good. My in-laws visited. Also good. I dragged them to Masters of the Universe. Bad but also good (and there were so many dick jokes. Good? Not good? Funny? Vaguely funny). But then I spent the following Thursday in the ER Adn we et into the real point of me jamming this screed out while not letting my better judgement get the "better" of me. These things are not…