Boxes

The worst possible thing I can do when I'm having a bad AuDHD day is start organizing my office, and that's the main thing I'm inclined to do, probably to somehow reclaim a bit of control. The process is the same every time. I wake up, maybe tired after having only a few hours of sleep, and the tiredness throws off my morning routine. Maybe I didn't feel like brewing coffee, or I wasn't hungry and postponed breakfast. Or I overslept a little bit and I'm rushed to start working. Whatever it is, I feel like I'm not in control. Thoughts start bumping into each other, tasks overlap, and suddenly I'm jumping between apps, messages, thoughts, and tasks with very little control over what gets my attention. At this point, my anxiety starts taking over. A couple of hours have passed and I've accomplished absolutely nothing. I skipped coffee, so the withdrawal starts creeping in, which intensifies the discomfort. I'm now cranky and jumpy. And impatient. My desk is usually messy, as every…