midsummer check-in

so, pretty much what i expected to happen if i increased the time between blog posts has happened. it's made it really hard to write again after so much time passes (⌒_⌒;) i was reading b's post about blogging guilt and feel much the same. or maybe it's the heat making me extra lazy. maybe just not having to think and worry about the blog regularly has been a relief with my dad's condition getting worse and him becoming more needy by the day. but this month is my homepage's second birthday so i feel like i must check in just to mark this milestone ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ i don't know if i have any positive or inspiring things to say on this anniversary. i'm continuing to feel very mixed about the current state of doing things online. with everything going on today, like ai scraping/theft/slop, age verification bills, internet bans, it's kind of hard to really get excited about putting anything on the web anymore. will the stuff i put my heart into just end up being meaningless llm regurgitation and…