13 days to go...

Today I learned that my dad lobbied to have my name be Octavio when I was a baby. He was overruled and my name became Raiden… When I heard Octavio something in me unlocked. It’s a powerful name. I kind of want to go by it. I like my name Raiden, but it is a softer name. A softer person. Perhaps when I channel my defiance, my disagreeableness, my fury, I can be Octavio. Use it as a character. A more confident me. A more fiery me. Something about it just feels right. An unlock for sure. —— My mom just got home; I hear her car driving up the driveway. —— My friend and I bought steaks from Costco. They were fucking expensive; but they were really good. I cut them up. It was one of those big ass slabs of meat. He cooked them. I cut one up and made a big sandwich for lunch tomorrow. I’m excited for it. —— I worked today. It was a good day. My right toe has been going numb. I am going to wear thinner socks tomorrow; we’ll see if that helps with that problem. —— I went to a wedding on…