I started a "dirt notebook"

I love taking notes, but one problem that I have is that that I start cherishing every notebook that I start. I can't seem to keep my notes messy. Eventually, I start structuring the notes, doing cleaner handwriting, adding a cover or some stickers ... and before I know it, the notebook is too well-organised for simply scribbling into. This, of course, raises the hurdle for taking more notes and makes me start a new notebook, where the same process repeats again. It's a vicious circle. It won't surprise you that I'm somewhat enamored with the concept of shitty / messy notebooks, like this or this. In an attempt to change this, I've started a dedicated "dirt notebook" now. I've nicknamed it "The Drainage Channel", because it's just a place for whatever is going through my head right in that moment. I'm using an old, empty notebook that I found lying around the other day. The paper quality is pretty bad; every kind of fountain pen ink bleeds through so I'm forced to use cheap ballpoints…