IF Seal: As a young writer, I'm worried about getting started

hello, if seal :) I guess I just needed to talk to someone to get this off my chest. I'm young compared to most of the members of the if community. I really love writing; however, ever since I was a kid, I had this habit of comparing myself to other people. In my schools and classes as a young kid, teachers would grade the "best story" or writing style and this only increased my fear of writing as there was always someone better than me in the end. There's this story idea I want to make it into an if so bad; however, when I sit down and write some planning or scenes, there's this deep sense of inferiority within me as I fear of how the audience will perceive my writing style. Especially considering how many of the audience members in the community are a lot more older than me, I get afraid that my writing will be perceived "childish" and "immature". Sometimes this fear makes me run away from my projects and I leave it hanging or barely planned for months on end. Sometimes this fear…