how to just exist.

many of you have read through the many different seasons of my life. you read when i was heartbroken, when i navigated identity change, when political injustices were simply too much to just sit back and do nothing, but in the current season of my life i am just,,,existing. i work, come home, and watch love island. not in a depressing, bed rotting way, but in a relaxing state. i don't want to be a gym girly that grinds with 3-4 side hustles, while going to school at the same time. i want to just enjoy my summer nights.