nowhere and everywhere to go

sun kill moon - carry me ohio Your browser does not support the audio element. sorry self coming to terms with how broken i am means that you will continue to remain abandoned i see the richness of others' lives every life seems more whole than mine i cannot accept that there is so much i do not know there are many essences of life i fear i do not have the capability to experience or hold or pursue or be fearless of the suffering and loss that connection and experience come with why am i so scared of myself my image shattering a road towards healing seems like a mountain the second arrow of suffering is deep in my heart and i think i am pulling it out of myself but in truth i lodge it deeper a helpless animal stuck in the cycle of grief and pain who cannot accept that being broken can sometimes be permanent and when i taste another's consciousness i see the chasm between myself and normality this reminds me of this line from 'no longer human' "i lived so carefully, thinking someone…