i'm still here  (・_・)ノ

It's pretty obvious I didn't post anything in June. There's a couple reasons for that. The first is that the first half of June is hard for me. I lost my father very suddenly in 2021, so every year since then I experience a handful of shitty emotions around that time. I won't go too deep here, but anyone who's lost someone knows how grief can be an insidious thing. I generally feel very disconnected for a while around the anniversary. I might write about it in more depth some day, to help process some of it or just share my experience or something. My reactions then and how I've been handling it since have... confused those in my offline life a bit, and that's fine. They're not the one with my mind, so I don't expect them to understand. But maybe sharing it someday might make someone else feel less alone about it if they feel similar. IDK. Anyway, the other reasons I wasn't posting are more positive. I started a journal! Like a proper handwritten one. I got a little puncher to make…