scared shitless

I know how reality works. I know that everything I want already exists. I know that the universe is always bending toward me, folding time and space to support me, that Source loves me without conditions and without limits. I know that my vibration is the dial and my belief is the tuner and that what I focus on expands. I know all of this the way I know my own name. & right now, life is testing every single word of it. I’m in a financial valley. The type where the ground feels uncertain and the next step isn’t visible yet. I’ve been here before. Not this exact shape, but this feeling. The feeling of knowing the principles deeply while watching the physical reality lag behind. The feeling of having done the work, kept the faith, tended the altar, and still waiting for the physical world around me to catch up. & underneath all of it, if I’m really truly fucking honest—there is fear. Real fear that lives in my body, not the mind. The body has its own memory and it does not care what I…