My Relationship with God

I've been through a host of ventures finding god. Buddhism, Islam, Christianity, yet, I found home where I was born. Hinduism. For me, Hinduism isn't just a religion. It's philosophy, it's art, it's science, it's guidance, it's Bhakti personified. I discovered Maa in 2024, but she's been with me since I've been a toddler. I've struggled, but with her love, I've persevered. And the discovery led me to ask, what's my relationship with her? I've explored most of India's temples, prayed at Brihadeshwara, bowed to Maa at Calcutta, offered my hair at Tirumala. Yet, what was my relationship with her? Was she my cosmic mother? A incomparable peer? A teacher? A wife? What was my relationship to her? And unusually, I found my relationship to her, very different to that of a Shakta. A Shakta tends to find himself presenting a maternal relationship with Maa. Someone who can coddle and spoil him. Yet, with me, it's been a hybrid. When I cry, I know she's there to comfort me. When I celebrate, I…