Digital Circus and Suicide

SPOILERS AHEADThe Amazing Digital CircusI'm 30 now. A few days ago, I binged The Amazing Digital Circus in one night. It was fantastic. I only watched it because I saw art of the purple rabbit crying and it triggered a (most likely undiagnosed autistic) feeling in my brain. It made me cry 3 or 4 times while watching it. I love all of the characters. The ending was perfect, and well thought out. Though it's so high-grossing, full of weirdo fans, and memed to the point of most people thinking it's cringe, it really did have a lot of soul put into it. Gooseworx is a real one for finishing it. Jax abstracting was beautifully tragic. I can relate to him, unfortunately, when it comes to showing affection and combatting repression. Repression and resentment. That night and the night after, I would lie in bed and sob to myself. I thought about how I've treated and alienated my friends and ex-partners. How much of a hedonistic, lazy, selfish, and avoidant man I am. Suicide.(Take this with a…