My Father is Dead and I'm Poor

After two months of my last diary entry, my father died. And after two months of his death, I'm here. I could have asked for help sooner for sure, but I just ended up not having motivation to explain the whole mess, and yeah I don't need to, but I sort of want to?Frankly it might be a shock for most, I barely mentioned he was a cancer patient in some older notes, saying I'd eventually make a post about it - I just didn't assume the post would be about his death and not his treatment. For those curious, which is super fair, and if I was reading this I'd be probably dying to know (hah), my dad died over complications of a, at the time, diagnosed Stage 3 colon cancer, that had dissipated to the bladder (apparently that's not metastasis, because the organs are touching), he was diagnosed on March 2025, and had a colostomy surgery in September where his intestines were removed and put out (for the colostomy bag, the poop bag I'd call it), and 40% of his bladder removed, to then start…