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Returning to some of the older tapes that I used to do has been low-key revelatory on what I've been missing the during all those sessions in the past. One major point of tension I've realized and catch myself in realtime desire to *do something*, attempting to *do something*, pushing and applying mental force to *do something*. It's a natural reflex that oddly enough isn't as pervasive once I'm already projecting. And it isn't necessarily an issue with simply accessing those more immersive altered states, the reflex *to act* stops every single form of metaphysical work.