Guest Post: I was a Lady of Sorrow

In 2021, separated by thousands of kilometers, and still dealing with travel difficulties from COVID, my partners and I decided to create a play by post RPG game as a way to stay connected. For me it was also a way to deal with my trauma around sexuality and feeling like I wasn’t allowed to be sexual. I have a hundred things I would love to talk about with that game, but my feelings around it are incredibly complex. Maybe someday. I've been reading blog posts recently, always a dangerous pastime, and was really struck by Lost Girls by Weird Writer and the Princess Class by Havoc. The character I was playing fit somehow right between these two visions. I played a woman named Valeria suffering a vampiric curse, alongside my two partners. Valeria was magically bound to a lunar goddess called the Deep Mother. The Deep Mother was both midwife and funerary attendant, and cycled between her two rules depending on the moon phase. Valeria in turn cycled through bouts of manic sexuality and…