Eulogy for a Future That Never Was

This is a eulogy for a future that never was. I fell in love a few times. None of the relationships worked out. I got married once. I'm still working on getting un-married over a year later. I used to have a couple bands. We would play shows and go on adventures and such. I don't talk to any of them anymore. I used to think that the point of it all was... I don't even know anymore what I used to think. I want(ed) to have kids. Have a garden. Some cats. A family. I don't know what I want anymore. I had so many visions for this future that never was. In high school they told you your GPA really mattered, that you wouldn't get into college without a good one. In art college they told you your portfolio mattered. It really doesn't. It is 90% about who you know. Only maybe 10% about what you know or how good you are at the thing. I'm happy with what I do each day. I connect people with music. I build tools for people to make better music. I write music. I can sleep easy at night knowing…