Would I miss my mom?

Today my mom lied in my legs and closed her eyes, said she need a little break. I asked if she was OK and she answered she was missing her mom. She is the youngster (by many years) of more than 10 siblings and she just turned 59. Not long ago, one of her brothers died of cancer. I didn’t know him, but my mom spent a lot of time with him while he was in the hospital. She lost 3 or 4 siblings in the last 5 years. I guess she is getting the feeling she old and will stat to lose the people around her. So I understand why she misses her mom. I don’t remember my grandma. But I know she was a good person. It got me thinking “would I miss my mom?” I know in moment of despair many people think “I wish my mom was here” or “I want my mom” even when they are old and parent themselves. I don’t think I ever thought it. Not even in my most desperate times. I mostly exist around her. Despite her. Hiding from her. Still, I love her. The problem is I depend of her (for many reasons) and I feel she owns…