Fingers to Keys

I need to write something. Notice I did not say, I want to write something. I need to. My brain has been offline for a couple weeks. Not too bad. Not full on depressions. I expect it might have been if it weren't for the meds. Or, if I had to go to a day job. That's maybe the most interesting thing for me. How much less do I get impacted by the swings of bipolar disorder without having the pressure of a gig. I don't think there would be a difference on the mania side. The depressions side? It feels like I would have spiralled down if I'd had to deal with a 9 to 5 over the past few weeks. Struggling with one during my big depression was the major reasons I ended up in the hospital A measure that was necessary because I'd become a danger to myself. I got stuck in this cycle of thinking that I couldn't get my brain moving which meant that I couldn't do my job which meant that I'd get fired which meant I'd lose everything which led the rest of the way down the dark path. TODO List I've…