I want write better, but I think you never will see it

I had a long draft with a lot of my writing background, but I started to not like it, so I’ll take a new approach. I’m tired to write in english. Constantly using my second language is hurting my brain. I have to stop and search world to elaborate my points because they come to me naturally in portuguese but not in english. My vocabulary is small and I feel like a kid. I missed my own language, so I started writer more and read more in portuguese. I fell happier. Writing in paper/notebooks is also helping. I feel more fulfilled. I want to learn how to write poems and also crônicas (I don’t know a correct translation to the genre I’m referring to). Until know my attempts are not the best, but I’m happy with them. But I don’t think I’ll be posting any of my writing here any time soon. I would have to not only pass it from paper to digital + translate (because I know most people in Bear will not click in a post which isn’t in english or their own language). Maybe in the future, who…