Life lately

Hello beautiful people, I hope you are all doing well. Felt compelled to write a little bit tonight, so let's see where my fingers take us. As usual, I like to write intuitively and not over-edit or think it through too much. You probably noticed if you've read a few of my posts. Anyway, lately I've been feeling lost. Which is funny, in an ironic way, because 10 years ago I was feeling the exact same way, around the exact same time. I remember coming back from my trip to Rome in May and suddenly being "hit" in the face by my reality and routine. It no longer felt right and I could no longer ignore it. I felt like I needed to start over. Once I admitted this to myself, many sleepless nights ensued. I was not only feeling lost, but feeling trapped. That feeling was even worse. I started getting so anxious that I slept several nights on my studio's floor, in between my kitchen area and my mezzanine bed. I was listening to Clams Casino a lot. Eventually I gathered up the courage to quit…