My library should just be for me

I have a growing collection of books about Christianity in my personal library. These books are not devotionals, commentaries, or other theological pondering from seminary graduates: my shelf is filled with the folks who are willing to ask actual questions and provide unflinching answers about the Bible that wouldn't ever be likely published by the Zondervans or Thomas Nelsons. I built up my collection of books for my own interests; many of these are healing from my past where I felt fooled into accepting weak answers. In many cases I collect books on the chance I meet someone similar to my younger self who might benefit from better instruction. I also thought I could use this new knowledge to challenge others who have accepted the simplistic and inaccurate answers fed to them in popular Christian sources. I forgot to consider that the primary reason I started reading these books was because I was seeking answers, not because I was seeking to be challenged. The majority of people whom…