And I'm still unemployed. It's not for lack of trying. At least, not completely. I've gotten a few interviews, and I'm happy I got that far. I have two main obstacles--motivation and impostor syndrome--and they feed into each other. It is hard to be motivated when you feel like you don't know enough or work hard enough, and it is hard to feel like you know enough or work hard enough when you are not motivated to improve your skills or reach out to employers. I am starting to worry that it has been too long since I have been in that world and I've forgotten everything I learned. I know that isn't completely true, but I genuinely don't have a desire to review or improve my skills on my own time. It's my time. I wish that was an acceptable excuse. I do consider myself a good worker. Once I set my mind on a task, it will get done. The problem is that I am only a good worker when I know it is time to work, and I refuse to do that on my own time unless I find it fun. For example, I've…
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