This is it

As long as you keep secrets and suppress information, you are fundamentally at war with yourself…The critical issue is allowing yourself to know what you know. That takes an enormous amount of courage. ― Bessel A. van der Kolk What we live through, what we experience, how we navigate a life that is one unknown after another, how we keep breathing in the midst of pain, how we learn to carry suffering, how we open our arms to each other, how we offer comfort in the face of tragedy: none of it really makes sense. How we look forward with hope, how we keep functioning without hope, what we do when it feels like there’s nothing to hope for, when meaning is lost, when it would feel nice to have the earth open and swallow us whole… How we find small things to delight in, how we notice a good thing in the middle of a shitstorm, how we put our heads down and plod forward through despair, how we tilt our faces toward the sun, how we park the car and get out and shut the door and check the mail…