Today I finally learned my full name | A story of typos, names and rabbit holes. I gave up my deadname in July 2022, shortly after coming out, but how does one go about renaming themselves?

My first idea was just to shift the gender of my deadname. My middle name was easy. I already went by it most of the time that I was doublelifing before coming out. So that was just gonna stay Cristian. But my first name was a bit more complicated. It's not that it doesn't have a masculine variant. It does. It has several in fact, and a shortened neutral one. But all of them made me sound like a Skyrim NPC. My original one IS actually in the game, it's a very shield-maiden kinda name, but the NPC is wearing it is very obscure. The masculine versions on the other hand....oh boy. I think I've heard all the variations in there, some for multiple nords. So no, the masculine version of my first name wouldn't' work. Ok, so now what? Do I keep my initials or go for new ones? I won't tell you my deadaname, not that it's a secret, pretty sure with a bit of internet sleuthing you can still learn it if you're that kind of person. But for the purposes of this story I will tell you it started with…