Why Do I Keep Doing This?

In a lot of aspects, I’m really just trying to see where I fit in. And when I think about this blog and doing it daily since November 4th, I do continually ask myself why. Why do I keep doing this? One reason is a bit of a diary. Even though I don’t go back and read it that much, if ever, I do like having a record of all the scheming, all the musical scheming that I come up with. Case in point is the last 3 or 4 days, trying to modernize my sound with more modern house, maybe some deep house elements, and that’s all fine and good. But my biggest strength is that I do what I do pretty well. Had a great Daphne Falls rehearsal last night and came up with some really cool parts. There is some alchemy going on between the three of us, and what I do really slots in. And that thing that I do, bringing 80s new romantic, new wave, synthy stuff into today, really works. So why can’t I just be happy and do that? I’ve criticized people for the same thing. And so I ask myself, why can’t I just be…