the way I cry - or how i became a deranged person

I've always been a cryer (a crier? someone who easily cries), like, in life, watching movies and stuff, sometimes just by seeing a friend cry, but you know, only when things were sad (that might seem obvious but it's not, really). things were sad, i'd cry and that's it, nothing special about it. but there were two specific events in my life that completely changed how i cry. the first one was in 2017, when i experienced the biggest sadness of my life with the passing of my first dog. i cried so much and for so long that I started getting dizzy. and ever since then, every time i cry a lot, i get dizzy. it's so weird, it never went away, and it's only when i cry (a lot). the second one was in 2019, I think, when I first watched my niece on stage. she had started theatre that year and we went to watch her first performance. I don't know what happened to me that day, but the moment I saw her there I started to cry. and i had to make a superhuman effort not to do it hysterically, it was…