may 28 bcc

Okay, so, the worst thing that has happened to me all year happened today. We are not smiles times over here. I'm not going to talk/write about it yet but rest assured it has nothing to do with my health or anyone else's health. Anyway, after the thing, I wasn't good for a few hours. For a few minutes within those hours, I was literally shaking with rage and, I'm ashamed to say, thinking some vengeful thoughts. I was upset. I felt wronged. Thing is, it was also very nice outside. And my partner looked lovely. And I didn't want to be a whiny bitch about something I couldn't change and wasn't going to figure out today. Eventually, I got on a group FaceTime with some folks and talked an otherworldly amount of shit and felt better. Or at least lighter. To be clear, the situation is kinda fucked and very stupid. I am/we are not smiles times. But, like, that's life. Besides, I decided I shouldn't get too vexed considering that yesterday, I told a despondent stranger that the things that…