you met me at a very Chinese time in my life

Fuck. I didn’t wear my cpap again and I can tell it’s leading to morning fogginess. Not getting enough oxygen to my brain while sleeping. This morning I am slow. I had a coffee with some almond milk and protein powder. I watched some YouTube videos. I did some light stretching. But I still feel groggy and kind of grumpy and kind of… I don’t know… sad? Angry? Lost? I feel normal to an extent but not good by any means. It’s a weird feeling. Not the worst feeling but not the best. Meh, is how I would describe this feeling. Most mornings I wake up with this feeling of “Meh”. I’d like for less “meh” in my life. It’s hard to get going when I am feeling “meh”. I am hoping that doing some writing now will lead to less “meh” for the rest of the day. The election stuff is going well… well it’s going ok. I’ve lost steam the past few days. I keep “shoulding” myself. I should be door knocking. I should be handing out flyers. I should be posting on instagram and social media and X. I should be…