When you have everything..

you create nothing A friend of mine handed me a nice camera “to give it a spin” and see if I needed it. A few years ago this would've been a godsend, with ideas trickling out of every orifice of my body I'd have set forward to doing something with it. Now as a resident corporate slave who's firmly attached to the teat of the system, this event was stark in the way it non-registered. I used to reason earlier that the reason I didn't do more creative projects was the lack of money, resources, the Ausländerbehörde not accepting creativity as a valid excuse for having a work visa, laziness, lack of network.. the pit of excuses has no bottom. Now, coming from a place of plenty where I have the resources to make things work, years spent trying to find stability have eroded any last figments of creativity in me. There are days when there are no dreams in my head, the hunger has died down both in the stomach and the brain and I think more about tax efficiency than lighting, so I am on the…