may 25 rx7

Sometimes you wake up and brush your teeth and drink your coffee and whatever else and you certainly aim to go about your day (whatever that entails) but for whatever reason all the stuff that you understand but cannot function if you think about it for too long becomes the only stuff you can think about and if you have enough days like that you eventually end up taking up arms against the proverbial sea of troubles (i.e. tilting at windmills and eventually going insane) or losing yourself inside some comforting delusion that was purpose-built by our culture for this exact reason and the older you get the more you can recognize the constructed nature of everything and while on certain days this makes you feel like you stumbled your way into some cosmic moment you weren't actually invited to and on other days it makes you want to dig the deepest hole imaginable and spend the rest of your days there just waiting for the end and I guess what I'm saying is today was one of those days. 🌲…