brain dump, blah

Sitting at my friend’s house. At his kitchen table. My other friend is beside me. His sister and two of her friends are here as well. It’s a full place. Feels nice. I really like it when people are just around. Being around people is good. I enjoying being alone but also with people. With both. It’s interesting that way you know. Life’s interesting you know? I took my friend to Bragg Creek this afternoon. It was nice. My neighbours grandson and his wife came by before. We chatted for a couple hours. It was nice. Since I’ve been back in Calgary, it has been really social. I really like that but I am also scared it will stop. I am worried that I will be hit with the original malaise I felt before leaving. Why? Why am I worried? I don’t know. I like that my friend is here. He has been helping me with AI and executive functioning and aligning the Feng Shui of my parents place. There is a general feeling of worry I am feeling. I think because I know I am doing too much social stuff right…