Stockpiling

I weighed myself today. Don't like th number on the scale. 0.20kg away from 100. Not so great. The marathon training regimen for the Ultra isn't steaming so well either. So is the GRE prep. To assess where I stand, I can say in the past one month, the needle has moved, but not so much. You could argue that this is good progress, but it's not at the element where I'd like to be. With time running short, each day is getting more valuable, and I still find myself making the same mistake -- towering through junk food, shamelessly eating out, doomscrolling, and just outright being a menace. Just as I was writing this, my attention span beckoned a scroll. I find the concept of progressive change to be a bit BS now. I hoped to change everything gradually, dropping my calorie count from 2,400 to 2,300 and progressively to 1900. But that's BS. I still tend to go out party and not commit to studying for the GRE the way I'm supposed too. Why? Because I objectively just prefer scrolling. I enjoy…