Shame and Insecurity

I am a very ambitious person. Ambitions apparently don't fulfill themselves. Which I am realizing the hard way. I used to be someone who people called "naturally talented" I didn't study much, I passed all subjects, got good marks and everything was fine and easy. I thought If I had to fulfill something I'd fulfill it somehow in the end like I always used to. After completing high school with an average score, I decided on studying Computer Engineering for my bachelor's degree. I thought I'd love it, after all it's going to be all computers right? I was so naive. While I loved playing with tech and dreaming about the future of computers and technology, the First Semester of Computer Engineering hit me hard. I passed just 2 out of 6 total subjects. And those were Computer Programming and Engineering Drawing I. I failed Engineering Physics, Engineering Mathematics I, Basic Electrical Engineering and Applied Mechanics. While I failed them, I kept consolidating myself that, "If I had…