feeling guilty about ambition

Spending time on the indie web has been refreshing for me, but it's also highlighted that this is the other end of the productivity spectrum. Whereas the production 'bros' are wanting to be on all day, every day... The indie web seems to want to take a much more relaxed, personal and slow approach. It's funny, I feel guilty for not doing enough when around the 'bros' and guilty for wanting to do too much when I'm around the indie web. This isn't a knock on either side as such, it's certainly a 'me' problem but I'm coming to terms with the fact that I want to be a good great writer and that means needing some ambition and a want to produce. On top of that, I don't want to feel guilty over wanting to earn from writing. I appreciate money can be a bit taboo, particularly around the indie web and the importance of independence and how money can impact that - but writing has been where I've felt creatively free and I want that to continue. In short, I'm saying that I want to find a balance…