April Recap

How was the month? A lot of unproductive panicking over the finals. I think I just had the worst period I've ever had. And it wasn't even painful. It wasn't. I just felt like shit. I took an ibuprofen pill right as it started so it didn't hurt at all, just an incessant background discomfort. But I felt like absolute shit. Maybe it's a conservation of pain, that if I don't experience it physically I need to experience it mentally. Or maybe my goldfish brain just doesn't remember the times when it hurt and I felt as shit as this time. Or maybe it just compounded with general anxiety. Maybe it's all of it. Now I truly understand mood swings. I may be fine now but the next minute, I'm questioning all my life choices that brought me to this point. I hope next month would be better. I'd be going home next month. Can't believe it's nearly been a full school year. September to May… that's 9 months. Humans aren't made to part with their parents. Milestones IDK. Stuff I did Started writing Spy…