One of my mundaner inner shifts has been the value of timers. It just became more visceral. There’s pain in starting, and i decided to just be gentle with myself. So if a timer comes due and i still don’t wanna, i don’t force it. I ENSURE the feeling of missing it pulses in me (not painful, just a pulse), then reset the time BUT i halve the time. So I don’t spend more than twice the time to my date with the concept of time. The pulsing is what makes it work out, since my thoughts pull towards my task faster and faster. First thing was just feeding myself. Beginning of april, i missed a couple days of meals. The first timer was for a few hours out, and i ended up eating late at night and could barely stomach it. Then I set a timer to take a bite in 10 minutes. Then 5, then 2 min 30 seconds, then i snapped and took the bite first. Knowing myself, i set another time for the second bite, but this time i just decided to halve it. When next bite came due, i still ignore it and set another…
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