Briefly on shame

The cover image for the album 'LIVE ROPE' by Swans. I'm listening to Swans' LIVE ROPE, a live album that I thought is released today. It is, on Mute in North America, but it was first released in 2024. I felt a tinge of shame because I didn't know that. On the other hand, release dates are trivial. Swans can be truly great. Some part of me, perhaps a younger part of me, still feels shame in listening to Swans. I recall there being shame and accusations thrown around Michael Gira, the foundation of Swans. I don't know if anything about that is true. I feel shame right now for reckoning with my own shame, for how I allowed shame to exist without knowing about it. Honestly speaking, I'm a pretty self-blaming person. If I can find something in myself to blame for a 'bad' situation, I will. It's near-inevitable, at least for the time being. This sounds insane and pompous to my younger self, but here I go: I've read too much philosophy to not question my own questions. I've always been…