Where's my guide to midlife crisis?

I recently read two thoughtful posts that oiled the gears in my mind and eventually sparked this idea to write through what the hell is going on with me at the moment. One post was Pulling the Master Sword by Forrest, the other was Nostalgia always includes a temporal context by Wouter. You don’t necessarily need to read these posts to follow along, but both come highly recommended by me. They are kinda about the same topic, but I feel like I’m going to drift away from both while writing. I’ve slowly been coming to terms that I may be going through the dreaded midlife crisis . I’m not actually sure if that’s really the case, but I’m desperately looking for an explanation as to what’s wrong with me, and I’ve decided to just use this word for it. At 38 and having some kind of crisis, it feels fitting enough. Words are important. Things without a name are elusive, hard to grasp, scary, maybe even dangerous. A name, even if it is the wrong one, can help shape a thought into something our…